I am learning what it means to totally rely on God and surrender everything to Him...still not sure I really comprehend this or know how to do it. I desire to believe God for all He is and can do in my life and the lives of those around me. I want to know what it means to live the Christian life so that lives around me really see the life-changing love and power of Jesus and not the hypocrisy,self-righteousness and shallowness that has come to define Christianity.